TMJ sucks, so I don't 😬😭
Hi!
I think the first time I wrote about my TMJ was back in September.
That’s not because I was holding out on you. I’ve never shied away from talking about my chronic conditions, joint pain, and weird anxieties.
Nah, the reason I hadn’t mentioned it is because it wasn’t really an issue before then.
Like yeah, I have a small mouth. My jaw gets tired sometimes. But it’s never been a big deal.
So when it got so bad that my doctor prescribed me some very serious painkillers, I was really hoping it was just a fluke. That after taking those drugs and riding out the pain, I’d make a full recovery and be back to doing what I do best with my mouth.
I mean talking, obviously - get your mind out of the gutter.
The jaw discomfort did go away, but then it came back again. And again. Now it’s just another pain that comes and goes.
And this week, it’s been coming real hard - hey, I said get your mind out of the gutter!
This flareup didn’t happen because I was doing anything fun or irresponsible, either. It’s all because I went to the dentist. And after holding my mouth open for like an hour so they could stick a bunch of instruments in it, I knew it would take me a long time to recover.
So, I haven’t been able to do any of the fun things I really wanted to do this week.
I had to spend a lot of time holed up in my bedroom, stuck in recovery mode.
I didn’t get to podcast - and I’ve got a few episodes I’m really excited to record.
And I definitely did not get any action.
Alright, you can get back in the gutter now. Because it’s time to talk about sex.
If you’ve only heard about TMJ, you’re probably thinking it means no blowjobs.
And yeah, obviously it does. I’m not about to suck a dick when all the muscles in my mouth feel like rusty hinges. I’m especially not letting my husband put his thick hog in there. His girth is already pushing it on a good day - during a flareup, it might just put me out of commission for good.
If that was the only problem, I might still go for it. Mr. Austin’s a giver, and he’s no stranger to fucking without getting blown. Besides, I’d let him stick it in another hole or two. I’d show him a good time even if my mouth couldn’t.
But if you’ve experienced TMJ yourself, you know that it doesn’t just interfere with giving head. It interferes with everything.
For one thing, the pain can be extremely distracting. And it’s very difficult to get horny when I’ve got an ache that I can’t ignore.
But it’s more than just my mouth. Because what I’ve discovered is that jaw pain also causes headaches. And not dull little ones you can cure with an ice pack or a vibrator to the temple. Big, obnoxious ones that make me wish I could fall asleep and not wake up until it’s all over.
So, it keeps putting a pause on all the mouth stuff - the podcasts, the BJs, and even some gossipy pillow talk.
But it also pauses the hand stuff, dick stuff, and toy stuff.
Which is one of the reasons I keep looking for ways to ease these damn symptoms.
Because it would be nice if I could talk on mic for an extended period of time, go for a nice long chatty walk with my better half, get fingered real good, and sure maybe even suck my husband’s big stupid dick now and then.
But I haven’t found much.
Strapping a few ice packs to my face helps a bit, though it looks completely ridiculous.
Eating ice cream works even better, it turns out. But it’s a very temporary remedy and I can’t be eating ice cream every waking hour of the day.
I’ve also watched a bunch of YouTube videos and instructional TikToks so I could teach myself those jaw massages that are supposed to relieve all the right muscles. But it hasn’t really done much. And I’m not going to ask Mr. Austin to learn how to do those - we’ve already established that I don’t want him sticking any of his extremities in my mouth while I’m feeling this way.
So, all I can do is wait it out.
That means taking it as easy as I can, avoiding anything that’s too rough on my jaw, and sometimes texting Mr. Austin my thoughts instead of spilling them out verbally.
If I’m careful enough, maybe I can avoid any bad flareups after this one settles down.
Because TMJ blows. And it’d be nice if I at least had the option to.
Love,
Emma ❤
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The other day, I was fondly reminiscing about the time Mr. Austin fondled me so well it made me come. And instead of keeping it to myself, I decided to share my best nipplegasm tips!
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Also: being put to shame by a dildo, sexual insecurities, and the elusive big dick humiliation!
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