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I've always had a issue with my man and porn . I feel so insecure because I don't feel like I'm enough he wont touch me unless he's seen naked women and sex scenes . I'm really trying to not get upset he's done things to me I wouldn't allow anyone else he says he wants to make porn with me that I can make money . How am I to believe its me he is into . He sat 5 feet away from me for over a year watching porn on his phone secretively yet never touched me .. I have seen a few porn's I don't like the young girls like he dose or Asians . I may consider watching one with him but I would want it to be a not skinny tiny but not big and hefty . ya know about 40 5'5" 150lbs not model material or some dumb wannabee soccer mom that looks like a Victoria angle . I want him to pay more attention to me then the porn . I bought a ton of toys and restraints for my bed outfits I do not say no to anything he wants to do to me or me to him . It hurts so much feeling like I am not good enough and I don't turn him on . Yet I've begged pleaded for him not to watch that crap then come touch me . What do I do ?

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