Inexperienced girl wants big wood 🥵💦
Hi!
Having low self-esteem sucks hard.
Obviously, it feels terrible and that’s bad enough. But it’s actually worse than that. It also keeps you from being the person you want to be.
It’s why so many people have such a hard time experimenting sexually.
I keep hearing about people who wish they could dirty talk. Who want to be more dominant in bed. Who want to be more seductive.
People who want to fuck fully naked - with the lights on and everything. Who want to rock skimpy lingerie without feeling awkward in it. Who want to get on top or facesit or whatever they feel like trying.
But they just have a hard time working up the confidence to do it.
And I know how much that sucks because that’s been me for pretty much my whole adult life.
Not just with sex, though. With a lot of other stuff.
Deep down, I’ve always wanted to be crafty. I love learning new skills and making stuff. Having a project to work on is my happy place.
But I never let myself be that person.
There have been a lot of reasons for that. I was a busy mom. I had some mystery medical conditions that kept me exhausted as hell. I couldn’t always justify the cost of picking up a new hobby.
Those weren’t the main reasons, though. The big one is that I didn’t believe in myself.
I saw what other people could do and I’d tell myself I just don’t have what it takes. That I could never learn to do any of the crafty things I wanted to do - and if I did, they would never turn out right anyway.
I wish I could go back in time and shake some sense into myself. Because that’s really all I needed.
Once I stopped doubting myself and just started making stuff, I learned that it was really all in my head.
And because I finally clued into that, this month has been off to a really exciting start for me.
I picked up knitting and I’m enjoying it so much I have to be careful not to give myself a repetitive motion injury.
I stepped way out of my submissive comfort zone and tried to domme my husband. And it was surprisingly fun - I might just put him in his place more often.
I started playing around with different kinds of video styles - ones that don’t involve me masturbating in front of the camera.
It’s been a lot of fun, but it’s even better than that. Seeing what I can do is also helping me beat back some of my low self-esteem.
I’ve started wearing less when I’m hanging out with my husband. And the casual nudity I treat him to just feels good instead of embarrassing.
The last time we fucked, I let out more dirty talk than usual. Some that even surprised me.
And I feel ready to take on even bigger things. Not just yarn and needles, but wood and nails.
That’s my new goal. I want to get my hands on some lumber and build whatever the hell I need.
Raised beds to grow potatoes. Little tables to help my indoor plants get more light. And then who knows what.
I want to look the part, too. A cute toolbelt, lots of plaid, sensible footwear - the works.
That kind of shit used to intimidate the hell out of me. Now, it just sounds like a good time.
I’m done wishing I was a different person. Instead, I’m just going to work on being her.
If it all goes right, I’ll be a girl who fucks confidently, a lady who grows her own veggies, and a crafty bitch spending lots of time in her happy place.
This Week’s New Articles
I tried something else that was super exciting.
Not a craft, though. This one’s a sex pillow.
Specifically, a toy mount. And a really fucking great one at that.
The Humphrey helped me have lots of really dirty fun with myself, so I’m definitely going to be using it again and again and again.
Check out my review if you want all the details!
Grinders is so good I just had to tell more people about it!
If you’re a Millennial, it’s going to hit you right in the nostalgic feels - and a couple of other place too.
And if you’re not - well, it’s still chock full of hot fucking!
Enjoy!
Love,
Emma ❤
Sometimes I just wanna be used 🥵
A little bit ago, I wrote about why it’s so hot to watch men use sex dolls.
But do you know what’s even hotter? Having a guy use you that way.
This week, I started posting GIFs from the sex doll roleplay video I filmed recently - and a bit of gentle assplay too.
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This week, we're evaluating each room in the Netflix series How to Build a Sex Room!
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